When I am Gone

(Found this among my small notes written on 9th June 2011, 23:55 pm)

You could shed the tears now that I'm gone,

You could smile because I have lived my life.

You can close your eyes and pray that I safely come back,

Or, You can open your eyes and look around for all that i've left behind.

Your empty heart could be yearning to see me,

or you could be lost in all the time we shared.

U could turn your back on tomorrow and dwell among yesterday,

or you could be happy for tomorrow for our moments of yesterday.

You can remember me only now that I am gone,

So, cherish the memory and let it breathe to live on.

Do not cry and close your mind, be saddened and turn your back.

Do what I'd always wanted you to: smile, open your eyes, look for love around and go on !!

Bizarre true facts from Digital fortress: Dan Brown Craze!!

Bizarre true facts from Digital fortress: Dan Brown Craze!!

In large cities, Americans are photographed on the average of 20 times a day.

Everything you charge is in a database that police, among others, can look at.

Supermarkets track what you purchase and sell the information to direct-mail marketing firms.

Your employer is allowed to read your E-Mail, and if you use your company's health insurance to purchase drugs, your employer has access to that information.

Government computers scan your E-Mail for subversive language.

Your cell phone calls can be intercepted, and your access numbers can be cribbed by eavesdroppers with police scanners.

You register your whereabouts every time you use an ATM, credit card, or use EZ PASS at a toll booth.

You are often being watched when you visit web sites. Servers know what you're looking at, what you download, and how long you stay on a page.

A political candidate found his career destroyed by a newspaper that published a list of all the videos he had ever rented.

Most "baby monitors" can be intercepted 100 feet outside the home.

Intelligence agencies now have "micro-bots" -- tiny, remote control, electronic "bugs" that literally can fly into your home and look around without your noticing.

Anyone with $100 can tap your phone.
a new technology called TEMPEST can intercept what you are typing on your keypad (from 100 feet away through a cement wall.)

the National Security Agency has a submarine that can intercept and decipher digital communications from the RF emissions of underwater phone cables.

The Teacher !!

It had been a very tiring episode for my mind to run back and visit the last 8 years of my short and vivid life. I met almost everyone there, missing out a few less impacted people whom I tend not to remember. At every turn I took, I failed to see myself today where I stand when viewed from then. What a dilemma I was in during those deciding years of my career and self? I laughed at myself........kiddish as I was !!! One thing surprised me a lot. All the people who seemed to be a significant someone for me does not exist today... in fact they don’t even make a difference to me today. So I decided to come back to where I am. I thought for a long time!!

Today I have a new set of acquaintance who promises to be with me for the rest of my breath. However, after visiting the last 8 years I do not believe them either. At these deciding edges, I had come across people counted in fingers who had been a pillar to my thoughts.

There was one instance where a man, a substitute teacher, inspired me. It was in an English class and we were all snickering at the fact that this man was a assigned educator for us. I still remember the day when he 1st entered the classroom. He cleared his voice and began to talk to us. Never before had I seen a whole class stopping and listening to a teacher, regular or substitute. He told us of life..... philosophy. His voice was so quiet and smooth that not a single student made the slightest move for the whole half hour he talked to us. He just said these things off the top of his head about writing what you care about. He was truly the most inspiring man I have ever known. Throughout the duration of my seemingly short life I have searched for the person who would open my eyes to the world. Someone who would challenge me, helping me to discover who I truly was. He told us the reason why he liked being a substitute was that he liked being able to throw away the plan for the day and inspire. Amazing!!! At the end of the class, he gave another eloquent speech about how he enjoyed teaching us. "Maybe we will get to see each other again. All we have to do is hope," he sang. He made me aspire to do something different and to follow my heart no matter what it says. Thinking that I might never get a chance to meet him again makes me sad. At the end of the class, we cheered. In my heart, I believe at least I had a hope that we shall meet again.

The most obvious position in which someone can be in to have an effect on other people is a teacher. And yet my calculus teacher is undoubtedly one of the most surprisingly and profoundly influential person I've ever met in my entire life. Not knowing an answer is not an excuse for not getting it right. Never in my life would I have imagined I was capable of the things I have undertaken in her class. For the first time I understand the plausibility of "you can do anything you put your mind to". My whole view on life has changed dramatically, and I now look forward to the challenges and successes I know my life will bring. I wake up every morning knowing nothing is impossible and I can be free to dream whatever I wish because it could very well become reality. Evoking inspiration is the true aspiration of passion-is truly what I believe today.

Today,...I know only one thing when i wake up in the morning. I know nothing !! There comes a young start.

Time Traveler

Don’t judge me in the mercy of your thought,

I had walked into your life to find love

Not to be a material conquered with passion.

In the midst of your disapproval, I have looked away with time

This time is crucial, as I look into the blank to find you

I think and rethink, how did it get so late, so soon

I turn around and see my time traveler where I had left it

Hugging our memories of fondness and approval, Nameless

I am looked upon as old fashioned since I wait for your approval

I wait for the first move from your senses.

I live in my past, with its outstretched hand to take me

I feel progress progresses too fast

Today I set you free, be who you want to be

There will be no time limit to return home and no rule to bind you

You can change yourself or be the same

You can make the best or the worst of it

You can live your pride and be a star, and if you fail

                     Be courageous to start all over again.

I will not be your time traveler.

I will not wait for you; it is hard to be the one waiting

Cherishing - Being You !!

The easiest thing that a breathing human being can do is to live and the easiest thing that he/she can accommodate is to let others live.

However, today this has become to most difficult fight for survival. To be our own self while every other person is trying hard to make and cut and modify us into someone else. This yet stands to be the biggest accomplishment.

Every second of the day, it is a moment to stand up and put a stop to those trying to make us be someone else.Every moment from then is looking up to a wonderful tomorrow. That is the life one needs to seize and make a statement in the heart.

There will be a day when someone would want to have a life of yours. There will be a time when someone would want to be you. Someone would come by to follow your footsteps and take your path.That day you would be the guide for that person, you would tell him that one day you had dared to be no one else but yourself. Thats why there is a today.

You bear the torch, be the one to be unique and not someone else.

The Sign Language !!

After pushing you far away and walking to the other end of my mind, I jumped into the ocean of uncertainty. I love the ocean, I visit it every vacation and read books with it, listen to music with it, roll on the sun, dive deep into it. But…I never go and stay by it. The ocean I know is unknown to me for so many reasons. Wherever I go, how far my running away takes me, I am fine since I know where I can get back. And that is to you. Good things never end, purity never vanishes. Dreams never vanish. I have you secured in those dreams which if lost, I would lose my mind. And with my mind, you will be gone. To keep everything in place I keep dreaming.

Your being present is a lot meaningful, religious and satisfying moment for me. Your letting me brew coffee or light a candle to share a silence speaks all my heart for the rest of my life. A sketch of my future you try to draw tells me every moment of the seconds we are there, that, where we belong.

I am sorry, I cannot speak so rationally, but I can put colors to the conversation. This is my hideous requirement to be something more than just a human being. Drive the language of signs and not of words. Signs will keep us connected, even when words do not flow between us.

And so, I will dream more dreams since it is worth doing. What is worth doing is definitely worth overdoing. Then, when you confront my corpse, the absolute absence of life will not disturb you at all. I will be right there touching you with my signs.